畏葸不前

rán qiè xīn chàn huǐ bǎi bān zhēng zhá chóu chú páng huáng wèi xǐ bù qián

然妾心忏悔，百般挣扎，踌躇彷徨，畏葸不前。

My thought struggled at confessing, somehow hesitation ended in flinching.